*sigh*

It's done...it's over.  I took a chance, opened my heart, my home, my family, made myself vulnerable and was walked on it seems.  At least it feels that way.  My heart is in shreds.  I loved like I loved only one other.  And now, I just want to cut to relieve the pain, let the hurt out.  I can not do so.  I want to.  OH how I ACHE to do so! 

He always made excuses for his "friend".  Never defended me.  Never stood up for me.  You don't do that to someone you profess to love!  And so....I'm gone. 

I will always love you, sugar bear.  I do hope you have a wonderful life.