what to do

My heart....has been broken.  It has been walked on...tossed aside like it was junk.  All because I decided I could open it up and accept another in.  I had to walk away.  Hurt too much. 

I thought I found another.  *sigh*  I don't know anymore.  This, too, is causing pain. 

Maybe I just never should have said..sure! lets try this..... 

I do stupid things when my heart hurts.  None of them are good things.  I can see myself falling into this dark hole again, getting ready to bleed.  Physically I mean.  SO not a good thing.  I have scars on my leg.  But I don't care.  That is the scariest part of all.