thursday's shit, part 3

Still continues. I cut, again, for the 3rd time. After my computer slid onto the floor, I broke down. Started crying. he can out to see what was wrong...I looked at him and said, thanks for making my life hell. Went down to the garage to cry some. Had to pee, so I came up and ripped into him, crying the whole time. I think this is really it. I can not take anymore. I am ready to die. I want to die. And I don't want to die. I just want the fucking PAIN to stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!